How do you say goodbye?

When the haze of giddiness and the mirage of hope clears, the black and white of it all are what remain.

What is a Groupie?

Last night came to be quite a turning point for me.

I was finally able to watch a whole set of theirs. (He explained to me that a set is composed of about 10 songs.) And well, it is very degrading to admit but I think I am becoming a fan! Well, not a full-blown one that I would buy a copy of their album but... lets just say that I really enjoyed their performance last night! Gone were the sluggish strumming and indifference, in its place was a lot of energy and the passion that perhaps the reason why they’ve reached this very point in their careers.

After their performing their first song, he actually greeted me in front of everyone. Was quite surprised that he even did! When I sent him a message that I finally decided to watch and was already there, he didn’t reply. (The ass!) So when he greeted me on stage, I was surprised. “I would like to say Hi to my friend, ….” And then when they played my favorite song of theirs, well, he dedicated it to me. “… and to my friend …. Who went all the way here.” (The ass. I think he actually forgot that it was my turf!)

I would admit that I felt giddy when he said that. I mean, in one set, he actually mentioned me twice! Geez! But it was really the song that got me. Uh-oh. I really must be careful from now on…

BTW, figured out something. The reason why he appears cute is because of his hair. If he cut his hair differently, just like the one in his high school yearbook… well, then it would have been a different story. Probably because with this haircut, he looks like a little boy playing with his guitar… and well, the girls fall for that.

Will you?

Ask me out.
Yes.

Hits and Misses?

They have a gig at Rack’s El Pueblo this Friday. Told us, we have to come or the friendship is over. Yeah, right. (He’s such a flirt! Ugggghhhhh! He told us this when he was half asleep!)

But because of course, being me, I am looking forward to Friday night. (Which is by the way, our magazine’s turnover! Bwahahaha!)

And since we are not the only people who’s going to be there, I doubt it if he’ll even be able to say hello, much more talk for at least 10 minutes. (But I do sincerely hope that he would at least say hello. I also want to request a song. Ewwww. How pathetic is that?)

But I miss him, dearly.
I still want to kiss his mole and his dimples.
And I want him to ask me out.
I want us to go out again.
And this time, I wouldn’t be so guarded.
I’m going to be my usual charming self.

By the way, just figured something out…
People have much confidence that I can make him fall in love with me.
Wish I have that same faith in me!

Why give a damn?

Caught this movie on HBO before I left for work this morning.

The lady said, "it is because you are living, that's why you feel the pain."

Ouch.
Is a moment of absolute bliss worth the lifetime of pain? Because even if the wound has healed, the trauma and the scar remain.

Top 5 Things I Hate About Him.
1. His ability to make me feel like I am the most important person in the world.
2. His mole underneath his right eye that just begs to be kissed. (Same goes for the dimples on his cheeks.)
3. His messy hair that just makes him look so damn adorable.
4. His unshaven beard that makes him look hot and feels so sexy when brushed against my cheek.
5. His innate charm that just disarms me.

Where will the water flow?

Whatever happens from here is what should be.
I just threw in the towel.

Things I am thankful for:
1. The existence of the color pink.
2. Warm comforters at night.
3. Water.
4. The internet.
5. Gwen Stefani and Gavin Rossdale. ( i absolutely love this couple!)

How long has it been?

Its been a week.

Things that I am thankful for:
1.My two dogs who jump at me when I get off the car every night, as though they haven't seen me in a year!
2.The earphones that keep me company.
3.Two words: Styling Wax
4.The friends that put up with my craziness.
5.That someone who makes me smile. (and on the verge of making me cry.)

Has a filled-basket ever been a problem to you?

My life is great without you.
And it will remain great without you.

So why choose to make you a part of it?
Because of all the people I’ve met,
You are the only one I can see sharing this great life with.

But remember, even if you don’t want to be in it,
My life will remain fabulous.


Things I am grateful for:

1. This fantastic life God continues to bless me with.
2. My family who loves me unconditionally.
3. The friends who are genuinely happy for me and wish me the best.
4. The pink Hello Kitty radio that continues to give me joy.
5. The fantastic afternoon of 26 October 2005.